Most of my problems I don't really talk, about
But this shit fucked me up so bad I could barely walk, around
Both big toes ingrown so far, felt like they were stuck
So far four doctors tried to cut, in then cut em out
More needles in your foot, more pills up in your mouth
Everywhere I had to go I had to slow it down, guess Evan is a little fat kid now
Me and mom drink a two liter of pop everyday, I wonder if that's helping out
Bloody socks when you take shoes off, you just wanna keep 'em on
When other parents see that shit, they think something's wrong
And it really is, but we're trying to address it
Really got gross when them bitches got infected
And I'm impatient, it's hard to accept it
And I don't wanna be with the fucking physician
They're trying to "help it" or heal it
You know that I'm fucking done dealing with this, cause I don't believe em
Feels like they're leading me on and they're using a liter of freezer just so they can
write it off
Fuck it, let's light it up
If you are a patient, remember that you are a client dog
Doesn't matter if this is your life or not, and that shit might hurt the most
I don't let it show, I don't say a thing, you would never know I'm always in pain
I don't let it show, I don't say a thing, you would never know I'm always in pain
Always in pain
Always in pain
Reacting all the time, they think I'm insane
Always in pain
Always in pain
You would never know that I'm always in pain
Antibiotics pill bottle, always on me, all the time
Homies thought that I was chopping Oxycontin on my grind
But no man, unfortunately, all those medicines are mine
What's wrong with you
Not much, other than my fucking AHH
What happened man
Nevermind
I don't understand, we're sitting down
I'm lifting my toenail, inside of my shoe and it's clicking out
That is fucking disgusting man
You don't have to tell me, trust me fam
We dealing with it the best we can
I just really don't want to fail gym again
Embarrassment is setting in
Exhausted when I walk for ten
Hip-hop got me talking, but flip-flops are not an option
I often sleep on it, awkward
I wake up and sheets are covered
In blood or some fucking puss that I swear to god looks like mustard
Now it is time to muster up enough courage
To face another day with chronic pain that you are unsure of
Kept getting worse until pop saved enough from serving to cover the operation
It murdered, but now I'm surfing
I don't let it show, I don't say a thing
You would never know, I'm always in pain
I don't let it show, I don't say a thing
You would never know, I'm always in pain
Always in pain, always in pain
Reacting all the time, they think I'm insane
Always in pain, always in pain
You would never know that I'm always in pain
I don't let it show, I don't say a thing
You would never know, I'm always in pain
I don't let it show, I don't say a thing
You would never know, I'm always in pain
Always in pain, always in pain
Reacting all the time, they think I'm insane
Always in pain, always in pain
You would never know that I'm always in pain
Fuck, I'm done with these pills now
credits
from SECONDARY SCHOOL,
released September 7, 2023
Beat Produced by NishiBeatz
Additional synths by Ellevan
Written, Recorded, Performed & Mixed by Ellevan
Soul-searching hip-hop from this Florida rapper, with lyrics that dig deep and take an unflinching look at life’s questions. Bandcamp New & Notable May 1, 2023
An extended reflection on young love by way of plush R&B, the LA trio's debut thrives on ultra-tight performances and potent chemistry. Bandcamp New & Notable Aug 4, 2021
